WRITING

I write both poetry and prose but really I would like to be fictional myself.

Not published, but if it happens you’ll find more information here!

About writing:

I am constantly struck by my selfishness when I try to change myself and what kind of writer I should be in relation to the opinions of others. No one can really know who I am based solely on what I have written, so what should I choose? Who should I be? Therefore I often choose not to write at all. I am afraid and ashamed. I want to say so many things that I say nothing at all. I don't know what is important, who I am or should be. Furthermore, I don't know if what I think, or who I am for that matter, is anything significant to contribute with at all. And if that means I should stop writing altogether, I don't know. Everything is so self-absorbed that I feel sick. But I also want to write, or I think I want to, and I want everyone else who wants to to be able to do so aswell. I want everyone to just be left alone and write their books, and should also be part of ‘everyone else’, right?

What should I write about?

I don't want to hurt anyone and I don't want to take up space from someone else who could articulate themselves better than I can about a subject or an experience.

I haven't experienced much. I think a lot, you've probably understood that by now, but there's a big difference between that and experiencing. For me to say something about someone else's situation without really knowing what it feels like is completely wrong. For a privileged few to represent, discuss and phrase the problems is wrong. I can only imagine how certain things feel and would be happy to help ensure that more people gets the opportunity to express themselves. I have great understanding for being a voice for those who don't have one, of creating platforms for expression, of listening and of taking a stand. However, I don't want to take words out of someone else's mouth. Therefore, I have decided to try to stick to my own consciousness and my own experiences. I will never know what it really feels or is like to be someone other than myself by writing, that’s what reading and listening is for! Everyone should have the same opportunity to write, read, and be read as I have.

But shouldn’t you be able to write about whatever you want? Many important books and discussions about books have emerged from the fact that you can write about anything. But writing about general human feelings regardless of person and event is the ultimate goal, isn't it? So why try to profit from space and attention that others deserve through poorly written stereotypes and incorrect interpretations. Stories and characters depend on the author and also on how the readers view the author. Writing about things you don't know is fine, but not if you ignore or hide your ignorance. It is not okay to write something that replaces someone who can do it better. Fiction is not reality and even if the content itself is important, there is always a person behind every word. A person who is reflected in the content. It is not possible to write free from responsibility or ignorance. It is important to act and leave space for others who also want to tell their story or convey their feelings.

About conscience:

My conscience will never be completely clear and you will never really know me. There are very few who know who I really am and maybe that's for the best, I am actually at least as funny as I am melancholic and shy but I don't need to prove that to anyone. I will try my best. I can always write more and better but please stick to the end of the things I write before you think that something is missing. But please let me know if something is wrong, if you have something to add or have a good idea on how we can make it easier for more people to say what they think. Organization and cooperation require effort and I am willing to try if you are.

Will I feel selfish, bad and insecure after I finish writing? Yes every time, but I won't hurt anyone. I won't try to claim things I don't know or reason about topics I have no personal opinion about. There are more problems than I can handle or write about. There’s not enough time for all the little problems to be small and all the big problems to be big. What I write can only be what I think and believe right now, nothing more and nothing less. I am doing the best I can and I am not better than this. Me, me, me bleörg. Thank you and I am sorry!